Hey!
I have no idea what Im going to write, so apolobogies now for whatever horrendous things I say.
I've been out visiting my grandfather today, so that was fun, we did lots of random things, and it appeared we just walked along the street, shoving our noses into people's houses and talking to them. I wish my life was like that, It would be so much fun forcing yourself upon some random person on your street, I mean, obviously we knew the people, but they had no idea we where coming. xD
I saw alot of clay pigs, and an elephant. The pigs where amazing, they looked real, they didn't look like one of those typical, comical fat pigs, they actually looked correct, their legs where right, their faces, and everything. I really couldn't quite get out how much I liked them.
My brother's decided he wants to build a land rover, lets see how long that lasts. ^^
I'm attempting to master the art of animation, so far I have only made a dragon breath fire, and It kind of flopped a little when it came to removing the fire, I'm not sure why.
That's all I really have to say. It's a nice day, isnt it?
:)
Monday 27 May 2013
Friday 24 May 2013
Nothing in Particular
Hellew. o.0
I'm listening to music from Evita now. I don't know why, I just randomly started listening to music like that last night, and I'm still listening to it now.
Not that I haven't slept, I did that, but then woke up and started listening to more music.
I think maybe I'm going a bit cooku, or whoever you spell it. I'm supposed to be showering right now, or doing something interesting, but I'm sitting here, talking to you, and listening to music. I'd forgotten how much of this film I remember, each song reminds me of a specific moment, I'm just glad 'Don't cry for me, Argentina' hasn't come on yet. I might actually cry on that one.
My parents felt stressed yesterday, I don't really know why, and I'm not going to ask, If it's important, I'm sure we'll be told. I almost had a meltdown yesterday, I just got very, very angry, and anything any of my friends just hacked me off more. Luckily I went to bed before I could blow my top, listening to instrumentals helped. I think possibly this is why I'm just listening to this sort of music now.
I don't know if my step-sisters coming round today, but I'll clean my room anyway, because It's a mess, and someone has to do it. ^^
I found someone of Deviant Art who has a dragon called Cole, It's sort of a robotic looking one, and very space age. We're doing an art trade now, so I have to draw theirs, and they mine. I'm a little bit worried, because I've never drawn something like that yesterday. But I did a little tester, and I think It'll work.
Omgosh, this is the song with the posh people in! :)
Lord, I really need to get a life, I'm so very typically teenager-y, I'm sure all people my age listen to musical music. Ah, Péron's Latest Fling. It's so much fun to listen to. All this music actually tells a story, I suppose that's maybe why I like musicals, I like music that tells a story, or pictures that tell a story.
I'm sorry. xD.
The telly doesn't seem to work anymore, which is odd, because it did shortly before mum came home, and I think it did for a while whilst she was there. But now people can't watch their favourite telly, and I cannot watch documentaries.
I really hate it when Auto-correct tells you to correct English spelling into American. Not that I have anything about America or the Americans, I just hardly see how 'mom' or 'favorite' is correct spelling. :3 But I'm sure Americans think the same of the British.
Anyway, I'll go, because I cannot type anything else that interesting.
-Me
I'm listening to music from Evita now. I don't know why, I just randomly started listening to music like that last night, and I'm still listening to it now.
Not that I haven't slept, I did that, but then woke up and started listening to more music.
I think maybe I'm going a bit cooku, or whoever you spell it. I'm supposed to be showering right now, or doing something interesting, but I'm sitting here, talking to you, and listening to music. I'd forgotten how much of this film I remember, each song reminds me of a specific moment, I'm just glad 'Don't cry for me, Argentina' hasn't come on yet. I might actually cry on that one.
My parents felt stressed yesterday, I don't really know why, and I'm not going to ask, If it's important, I'm sure we'll be told. I almost had a meltdown yesterday, I just got very, very angry, and anything any of my friends just hacked me off more. Luckily I went to bed before I could blow my top, listening to instrumentals helped. I think possibly this is why I'm just listening to this sort of music now.
I don't know if my step-sisters coming round today, but I'll clean my room anyway, because It's a mess, and someone has to do it. ^^
I found someone of Deviant Art who has a dragon called Cole, It's sort of a robotic looking one, and very space age. We're doing an art trade now, so I have to draw theirs, and they mine. I'm a little bit worried, because I've never drawn something like that yesterday. But I did a little tester, and I think It'll work.
Omgosh, this is the song with the posh people in! :)
Lord, I really need to get a life, I'm so very typically teenager-y, I'm sure all people my age listen to musical music. Ah, Péron's Latest Fling. It's so much fun to listen to. All this music actually tells a story, I suppose that's maybe why I like musicals, I like music that tells a story, or pictures that tell a story.
I'm sorry. xD.
The telly doesn't seem to work anymore, which is odd, because it did shortly before mum came home, and I think it did for a while whilst she was there. But now people can't watch their favourite telly, and I cannot watch documentaries.
I really hate it when Auto-correct tells you to correct English spelling into American. Not that I have anything about America or the Americans, I just hardly see how 'mom' or 'favorite' is correct spelling. :3 But I'm sure Americans think the same of the British.
Anyway, I'll go, because I cannot type anything else that interesting.
-Me
Thursday 23 May 2013
*happy dance*
It is done! Finally I have finished my picture for the new header thingy. :3 I quite like it, The 'scales' where fun to draw, just a lot of splodges of different colours, all mixed together.
I think my brothers trying to wind me up, occasionally he goes 'HA-HA' really loudly, and sounds vaugley like a donkey.
Today my grandad came over for a bit, that was fun. ^^
Okay, so I only really posted for something to do, as I actually have no idea what to write.
Im listening, Oh there he is again xD, Im listening to awesome music today, it's depressing, and awesome at the same time, I call it, 'Depawesome' thats actually a terrible name. XD
Ech, I'll go now.
Good day! ^^
I think my brothers trying to wind me up, occasionally he goes 'HA-HA' really loudly, and sounds vaugley like a donkey.
Today my grandad came over for a bit, that was fun. ^^
Okay, so I only really posted for something to do, as I actually have no idea what to write.
Im listening, Oh there he is again xD, Im listening to awesome music today, it's depressing, and awesome at the same time, I call it, 'Depawesome' thats actually a terrible name. XD
Ech, I'll go now.
Good day! ^^
Wednesday 22 May 2013
Lets try to be happy!
Let's try something new.
I'm tired of using this blog to post my feelings, well, my depressing ones, and yet I still do it because it is easier. So I'm going to try and keep this post free of depressing things, from now.
I've been practicing dragons, a lot. I can draw wings much better now, feet are becoming easier, and I think I've found a style of head I made up myself, to say, I didn't stare at others artwork to get the idea. I got this head by scribbling in my big pad of paper when my Step-Sister was doing homework or something. Or twitter, or one of those social networking sites, It doesn't really matter.
I'm going to use that head design on the new title I'm working on, because as my small description thing says, I should really draw my own, as I can draw dragons now.
She got a job, my Step-Sister did. And I'm pleased, because that means she's growing up, and will be able to do what she wants soon, shes clever, and I've never seen her as sitting down in an office, I'm pretty sure something to do with animals will come in somewhere in her life. ^^
I listen to a lot of music when I'm alone now, and most of it is depressing, but right now I'm only listening to cheery music, because there's no need to listen to sad music when I'm trying to be happy.
I'm going to be able to go to school soon! I'll say that because we don't know which school, maybe my blog will cheer up when I go, as it used to before.
I forgot to make my tea, the teabag was in the water for 15 minutes or something, because there was a lot of that floatey dark stuff on the surface.
At the moment I think my favourite band things are Imagine Dragons, and Bastille. To be honest, 'Imagine Dragons' was obvious, I'm pretty sure I'd like them even if their music was terrible. Bastille seem to make songs based around legends and gods and events in our history, it's awesome.
We're growing plants, well, I'm growing plants, my brother waters when he remembers, and helps plant them, mum looks after them when we're not here. Grandad gave us six tomato plants, three each, and bought a small plastic tomato house for them all. My brother named his, Nikki, Tom, and Jerry. I prefer Tom, just because I still prefer that name.
I watched someone draw a realistic wolf yesterday, and helped her with the creation of it, from the pelt colour, to the lighting, to the winking emote. She wanted to make it blink, but I told her to make it wink, and she did. It was also neon pink and had neon blue stripes, but apparently that's not 'realistic' :P
I've ran out of things to say. But I'm leaving this post feeling slightly better, I should do that more often.
-Me
I'm tired of using this blog to post my feelings, well, my depressing ones, and yet I still do it because it is easier. So I'm going to try and keep this post free of depressing things, from now.
I've been practicing dragons, a lot. I can draw wings much better now, feet are becoming easier, and I think I've found a style of head I made up myself, to say, I didn't stare at others artwork to get the idea. I got this head by scribbling in my big pad of paper when my Step-Sister was doing homework or something. Or twitter, or one of those social networking sites, It doesn't really matter.
I'm going to use that head design on the new title I'm working on, because as my small description thing says, I should really draw my own, as I can draw dragons now.
She got a job, my Step-Sister did. And I'm pleased, because that means she's growing up, and will be able to do what she wants soon, shes clever, and I've never seen her as sitting down in an office, I'm pretty sure something to do with animals will come in somewhere in her life. ^^
I listen to a lot of music when I'm alone now, and most of it is depressing, but right now I'm only listening to cheery music, because there's no need to listen to sad music when I'm trying to be happy.
I'm going to be able to go to school soon! I'll say that because we don't know which school, maybe my blog will cheer up when I go, as it used to before.
I forgot to make my tea, the teabag was in the water for 15 minutes or something, because there was a lot of that floatey dark stuff on the surface.
At the moment I think my favourite band things are Imagine Dragons, and Bastille. To be honest, 'Imagine Dragons' was obvious, I'm pretty sure I'd like them even if their music was terrible. Bastille seem to make songs based around legends and gods and events in our history, it's awesome.
We're growing plants, well, I'm growing plants, my brother waters when he remembers, and helps plant them, mum looks after them when we're not here. Grandad gave us six tomato plants, three each, and bought a small plastic tomato house for them all. My brother named his, Nikki, Tom, and Jerry. I prefer Tom, just because I still prefer that name.
I watched someone draw a realistic wolf yesterday, and helped her with the creation of it, from the pelt colour, to the lighting, to the winking emote. She wanted to make it blink, but I told her to make it wink, and she did. It was also neon pink and had neon blue stripes, but apparently that's not 'realistic' :P
I've ran out of things to say. But I'm leaving this post feeling slightly better, I should do that more often.
-Me
Tuesday 21 May 2013
I really do detest this.
I haven't posted in a while, I would have, but I dare not say the things that trouble me. However, I think that now I should do so, whatever the consequences may turn out to be.
The tribunal thingy went ahead, they ran out of time, so we have to do more waiting for the actual result. This is fine, this is Dandy, but It pretty much sticks me in a thinking tube.
Because, people always say they're going to do things, and then they either don't or run out of time. And it annoys me, because yes, they do have lives, and yes, its more important than what they said they where going to do. Doesn't make it any easier to let slide by. No promise has been made that hasn't been kept, but littler things are forgotten, and Im left worrying about them all.
Like the trophy from Karate. It digs into my heart like a dagger every time I remember it, and Im scared of what will happen. Because he'd said he'd kill me if I didn't bring it back after Christmas and he was joking, I know. Im still scared though. Apparently we've tried to get in contact with him, but I still don't like looking at it anymore, It's turned from a great reward, into a poison of sorts.
Like my braces, admittedly, I understand why we haven't done this yet. But the dentisty man Is going to be really angry at me, because it's been falling apart and broken for ages, I bet it's not even doing it's job anymore!
Like when people say they're going to take me out regularly, I miss my club, and I miss people I liked being with. But I can't go now, because we're don't have the time, and no form of transportation. Because Mum's working, so she can't really take me anymore.
But she seems to be working all the time now. And I get why, I just remember all the time's she said we could go out on walks together, to get me out the house, and It would be good for both of us.
We ran out of time with the book thing too, we where supposed to do that ages ago, and I can't help thinking that maybe if we'd have done it sooner, we wouldn't be in this mess now. Only now it's not finished, and I have to write more into it, and my heads run out of tales.
But look who's talking, Im the no.1 Lazy ass of Lazy Ville here. I'm so flipping lazy, I don't even do anything most days. WHY DONT I DO ANYTHING? What's all this shizzle about 'lacking motivation' Im just lazy. And I hate it. Im trying to change, I put my alarm on, I try to go to bed at 'okay' time's. Doesn't stop me from being lazy. I would go for a walk on my own, but I get scared. I'd do the story thing on my own, but I need help. I know I can't go to the dentists alone, that's quite a way away. But as the rest of the world goes twirling and swirling around me, I can't help but hate myself.
I don't even try to hide my feelings anymore, there's no point saying 'I'm fine' really. People always know Im not. So Instead, opt for something else, like 'Well enough' Or 'I'm okay, considering.' That seems to feed people and their want to know about my welfare, so I leave it at that. I do still say 'Im fine' I just try to vary it occasionally.
I hate myself, because I sit here, complaining, and never actually do anything about it. So just ignore me. Because I can't see any future anymore. Not that Im not going to try. Thats one thing, one thing in this world that I really, really want.
But yes, I am jealous of my brother. Because he's 'normal' and has loads of friends. He's clever, and funny, and bright, and amazing. He's all of the things I always wanted to be at school, whenever we go to someones house, he's an immediate hit, doesn't matter about their age, gender, or whatever. People just love him. And Im left sitting there trying to not get angry at something he can't help.
The tribunal thingy went ahead, they ran out of time, so we have to do more waiting for the actual result. This is fine, this is Dandy, but It pretty much sticks me in a thinking tube.
Because, people always say they're going to do things, and then they either don't or run out of time. And it annoys me, because yes, they do have lives, and yes, its more important than what they said they where going to do. Doesn't make it any easier to let slide by. No promise has been made that hasn't been kept, but littler things are forgotten, and Im left worrying about them all.
Like the trophy from Karate. It digs into my heart like a dagger every time I remember it, and Im scared of what will happen. Because he'd said he'd kill me if I didn't bring it back after Christmas and he was joking, I know. Im still scared though. Apparently we've tried to get in contact with him, but I still don't like looking at it anymore, It's turned from a great reward, into a poison of sorts.
Like my braces, admittedly, I understand why we haven't done this yet. But the dentisty man Is going to be really angry at me, because it's been falling apart and broken for ages, I bet it's not even doing it's job anymore!
Like when people say they're going to take me out regularly, I miss my club, and I miss people I liked being with. But I can't go now, because we're don't have the time, and no form of transportation. Because Mum's working, so she can't really take me anymore.
But she seems to be working all the time now. And I get why, I just remember all the time's she said we could go out on walks together, to get me out the house, and It would be good for both of us.
We ran out of time with the book thing too, we where supposed to do that ages ago, and I can't help thinking that maybe if we'd have done it sooner, we wouldn't be in this mess now. Only now it's not finished, and I have to write more into it, and my heads run out of tales.
But look who's talking, Im the no.1 Lazy ass of Lazy Ville here. I'm so flipping lazy, I don't even do anything most days. WHY DONT I DO ANYTHING? What's all this shizzle about 'lacking motivation' Im just lazy. And I hate it. Im trying to change, I put my alarm on, I try to go to bed at 'okay' time's. Doesn't stop me from being lazy. I would go for a walk on my own, but I get scared. I'd do the story thing on my own, but I need help. I know I can't go to the dentists alone, that's quite a way away. But as the rest of the world goes twirling and swirling around me, I can't help but hate myself.
I don't even try to hide my feelings anymore, there's no point saying 'I'm fine' really. People always know Im not. So Instead, opt for something else, like 'Well enough' Or 'I'm okay, considering.' That seems to feed people and their want to know about my welfare, so I leave it at that. I do still say 'Im fine' I just try to vary it occasionally.
I hate myself, because I sit here, complaining, and never actually do anything about it. So just ignore me. Because I can't see any future anymore. Not that Im not going to try. Thats one thing, one thing in this world that I really, really want.
But yes, I am jealous of my brother. Because he's 'normal' and has loads of friends. He's clever, and funny, and bright, and amazing. He's all of the things I always wanted to be at school, whenever we go to someones house, he's an immediate hit, doesn't matter about their age, gender, or whatever. People just love him. And Im left sitting there trying to not get angry at something he can't help.
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